My not-always-so-fabulous-life

Mmmmmm!!! A very romantic dinner was had at a very posh French restaurant this weekend!!! I wore absolutely NOTHING under my skirt and it took until we were at the coat check for M. to realise. He absolutely flipped out, and couldn't wait to get back to my place. I don't think he took any Viagra, and he certainly didn't need to!! During the car ride back to my place (one of his acquaintences drove us back) he insisted on sitting in the back seat with me! He would not stop putting his hand up my skirt -- even though I told him his friend was watching us. Sometimes he just gets so excited in front of his friends that it makes me feel kind of trashy.

• Two more weeks and then I as him for money for new clothes
• One month and two weeks before I cry about needing money for Christmas presents

I should actually save up money for the trip to the Maldives I am planning with this other guy I have been seeing. That would be the smart thing to do... it is in March after all. Maybe I can tell him I am going to Cuba with girlfriends and get some money for that too!!! I *must* go to the gym tomorrow so I can reach my target and he notices how good I am looking and gives me the cash I want for clothes. Oh, and the satisfaction of knowing that I am in good form for competing against this Israeli chick (whom he has not emailed in the last three days, and he missed dinner with because of an email I intercepted!) Bitchy, but, hey, if it keeps me inspired to lose those ten extra pounds, then, it's worth it. Right?

Right? Okay.... I am overcome by vanity... I need to know. Do you people think I am a total whore? I have been getting some pretty nasty emails. I am not an evil homewrecker!I am not, I swear! But am I wrong? Leave a comment and let me know!

The OTHER other woman -- and responding to a comment

I received a comment to the previous post that I thought was very thought provoking. I decided to post it here and respond to it, as I thought it might help readers understand my choices a little bit better. As I am about to go to bed, I think that I will probably have to finish up ... next post! So here's a start...

Why are you waiting for this married man? It seems like you have put your life on hold for someone who will never be there for you.

Definitely. I cannot deny that I am putting my life on hold, and I know that he will never be there in the sense of marriage and a full time relationship, but, I guess because I am still young, I figure it is worth it. I love being with him, and I love him. He is there for me, when it counts. If I need something, he finds a way to make it happen -- even if it means sending one of his friends when what I really need is him. It is not ideal, but, it is soooooooo exhilirating.

In other, more gossipy news, I ran into a woman that he worked with in another of his jobs (he works in more than one place). They worked in a tiny, elite consulting firm. He and she were dating at the time, this was about two years after we started going out, and I think she suspected that we were up to something (I used to find excuses to drop by every three months or so). Anyhow, I saw her in the grocery store tonight (I was looking very cute!) and I must admit, my heart skipped a beat. I felt this flutter, as if I had somehow won some secret competition because M. and I are still together, and he is not still with her. (Though he is seeing this Israeli chick - emails confirm it. Damn, I need to put a stop to that.)

I know it is evil, and very anti-woman, but, can anyone else out there understand? Please, let me know!