My not-always-so-fabulous-life

Mmmmmm!!! A very romantic dinner was had at a very posh French restaurant this weekend!!! I wore absolutely NOTHING under my skirt and it took until we were at the coat check for M. to realise. He absolutely flipped out, and couldn't wait to get back to my place. I don't think he took any Viagra, and he certainly didn't need to!! During the car ride back to my place (one of his acquaintences drove us back) he insisted on sitting in the back seat with me! He would not stop putting his hand up my skirt -- even though I told him his friend was watching us. Sometimes he just gets so excited in front of his friends that it makes me feel kind of trashy.

• Two more weeks and then I as him for money for new clothes
• One month and two weeks before I cry about needing money for Christmas presents

I should actually save up money for the trip to the Maldives I am planning with this other guy I have been seeing. That would be the smart thing to do... it is in March after all. Maybe I can tell him I am going to Cuba with girlfriends and get some money for that too!!! I *must* go to the gym tomorrow so I can reach my target and he notices how good I am looking and gives me the cash I want for clothes. Oh, and the satisfaction of knowing that I am in good form for competing against this Israeli chick (whom he has not emailed in the last three days, and he missed dinner with because of an email I intercepted!) Bitchy, but, hey, if it keeps me inspired to lose those ten extra pounds, then, it's worth it. Right?

Right? Okay.... I am overcome by vanity... I need to know. Do you people think I am a total whore? I have been getting some pretty nasty emails. I am not an evil homewrecker!I am not, I swear! But am I wrong? Leave a comment and let me know!

Saturday night!

I am so excited!! I haven't had time to repair the blog posts yet, but I had to tell you this! M. is coming back from his trip on Saturday, and he is coming to see me first! I am so excited!! I know that his wife was supposed to go with him, but for some reason she stayed at home ( I checked his email and found the cancellation message in his inbox). So that means he is not going to see her first, but me!!

I am so excited, he has been away for almost a week and a half. I can also see from his inbox that he has been corresponding with another girl, and it looks like he has been trying to help her get a job. BASTARD!! I must admit, I do get very jealous when I see or hear him talking to other women. You would think 1 mistress would be enough, and I guess for some men it is. I think he feels that if he can get away with having one girlfriend, then why not try for more? Which really hurts me sometimes.

I must admit, I have been a little bit stressed out lately, and have been letting myself go a little.... MISTAKE!! I have been going to the gym for an hour and a half this past week, each night, to kick myself back into gear. It takes me an hour and a half because I am a bit rusty, and I am trying to do lots of cardio. I mean, I know he loves it when I am a little bit fitter, and I love it when I am too. So, for anyone who is out there thinking that we shouldn't have to look a certain way to be lovable, or shouldn't feel that we have to be thin to be attractive, fair enough. And for all of those who think that a mistress is chosen because they are more *whatever* (insert adjective here), guess again. It has nothing to do with being thin (I am very curvy) and I believe it has more to do with ego-stroking. That and he is lacking in genuine friendships in his life.

I am sure, for his wife, that there were signs there all along that he might be or become a cheater. I know that times were different then, and I thank god I have the choice to not have to 'settle down' with someone like that today. I think being with M. has made me a bit more aware of some of the patterns of cheaters. I hope this does not completely affect my ability to trust down the road...

Anyhow, I am not going to get my legs waxed (my skin gets too red after) as it is too close to his arrival. I will take a nice long soak tonight and prepare myself for his arrival. I hope he is civilised enough to sit through drinks before tearing my clothes off! For a man above 60, he certainly knows how to show a girl a good time. It's amazing how comfortable he is in the bedroom, trying new things, playing with toys, discussing what he likes and wants. There is nothing he won't do. Nothing. Mmmm... now that I am all excited, back to work!

Posting issues and a kiss!

I am not having a happy blog experience! My formatting has gone askew, and so the Sept - Oct posts that are bizarrely affected have been set to draft for now.

I went to see M before he left for his trip. There was no one left at work, so we snuck into an office and - I swear! - just kissed. He wanted me to become more *ahem* intimate with in a particular way, however, I was not having any of it. Afterall, it's not very ladylike. And how would I get him to stop by later on if he wasn't all worked up? Smart girls use their head, not give it! Well, not all the time!

So, in the end, all we did was kiss. And it was lovely :)