The OTHER other woman -- and responding to a comment

I received a comment to the previous post that I thought was very thought provoking. I decided to post it here and respond to it, as I thought it might help readers understand my choices a little bit better. As I am about to go to bed, I think that I will probably have to finish up ... next post! So here's a start...

Why are you waiting for this married man? It seems like you have put your life on hold for someone who will never be there for you.

Definitely. I cannot deny that I am putting my life on hold, and I know that he will never be there in the sense of marriage and a full time relationship, but, I guess because I am still young, I figure it is worth it. I love being with him, and I love him. He is there for me, when it counts. If I need something, he finds a way to make it happen -- even if it means sending one of his friends when what I really need is him. It is not ideal, but, it is soooooooo exhilirating.

In other, more gossipy news, I ran into a woman that he worked with in another of his jobs (he works in more than one place). They worked in a tiny, elite consulting firm. He and she were dating at the time, this was about two years after we started going out, and I think she suspected that we were up to something (I used to find excuses to drop by every three months or so). Anyhow, I saw her in the grocery store tonight (I was looking very cute!) and I must admit, my heart skipped a beat. I felt this flutter, as if I had somehow won some secret competition because M. and I are still together, and he is not still with her. (Though he is seeing this Israeli chick - emails confirm it. Damn, I need to put a stop to that.)

I know it is evil, and very anti-woman, but, can anyone else out there understand? Please, let me know!